Begging for money on the internet Passing around the same 20 to 60 dollars around the same half dozen friends I cry in bed at night This isn’t the world afternoon cartoons promised me My friends get their heads cracked in on the streets of every major city When they say Black Lives Matter Free…

By em/mett Tear out my heartleave me with nothing but the memoriesand nightmaresof you I will no longerexcuse your actionsor call you adamaged soul I am grown updrinking seven cups of coffeesmoking a pack a daysmothering myselfin words and paint You will always be a damaged soul,of course,but that will no longer keep me awakefor…

By em/mett Fear fear fearEating me aliveI’€™ll never be whole againI’€™ve never been empty thoughAnd I refuse to beHow could I beWith all that life isAnd all that the universe isn’tWill never beNever wasCannotShouldnotWillnotWouldnotWillnotWhynotWhatnotHownotCosmo-notTraveling the galaxies lookingFor a better version of meAnd a worse version of youI’€™ll never find themThey don’€™t exist hereAnd they neverwillNevermoreHowevermoreFurthermoreSuffering…